life...

Doesn't time always fly when your having fun? Yet the times that you want to speed up seem to be forever. Like the difference between your time at a party and at work. I see life the same way, being that a life is a measure of time. Someone once tried to argue with me that life is long, REAL LONG, But Life is what you make it. If you are making wrong choices for your life or even just living life simply going through the motion life becomes like work, and it feels like forever. But if you can enjoy your life and live it to its fullest forever is never enough. Life is shorter than people chose to believe it is yes people say oh well we are young we have our whole life ahead of us yet they forget how quick the past year went by and that time stops for no man.Life is not a right it is a gift, a gift that can b taken anytime, so next time u think you got your whole life remember that tomorrow is never promise and today is all you got.

are you serious???

Its so funny to me how a man will sit there and talk bout everything he wants in a woman,yet when its staring him in the face he never knows what to do with it or even how to treat it.I hate how dudes think that they can expect so much from a woman yet they do not posses any of the qualities that they are looking for...they expect loyalty and all that yet they dont know how to be faithful or honest.From now on I chose to be loyal to my family faithful to my dreams and be dependable for none other than the people that choose to be so for me.

enuff of that

Now enough with all that bologna...I am pretty blessed right now,I just got not 1 but 2 jobs,I'll b gettin my own apt with one of my bestest friends,and should be getting my license back next week sometime,I haven't talked to a certain someone in over 2 weeks,and I found someone who makes me smile.It seems although I went through all that depression and drama last year things are finally beginning to look up,and I have realized that it's true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.I never thought the day would come when things started to get better at the time I felt like all would remain gloomy,life isn't perfect its far from it,but its a journey and I don't want to ever forget to smile and laugh along the way again.I learned that I choose my own happiness and success. Not only that I choose what life I will live and from now on I won't allow another person to control my mood. I have always known what I wanted, it was just a matter of how I was going to get there,now that I know what path I am goin to take NO ONE will get in my way,no will i let someone take my dreams away from me. When you've hit rock bottom,the only place left for you to go is...UP!!!!!!

crazy huh?

I just needed to vent a lil so i came here...lol!I think its crazy how sum1 can tell u they love u and how much u matter to them and that u are everything they want in sumone they wanna spend forever with and then at the end they cant evn be a friend...its so sad how u can give sum1 everything and do everything right yet it all still can get you to the same place as sumone who was messing up the whole time.i guess at the end of the day the only difference between me and the fuk up is that i cant ever blame myself for what happened...i gave it my all and lived up to my word and thats all i can do.

There comes a time...

There comes a time in your life when you begin to feel like nothing is going your way. You have nothing in your favor and every time you start to pick yourself back up some douche bag comes along kicks dirt in your face steps on your toes and pushes you back down. It starts to get to the point where you feel as though there is no use in getting up anymore, why not just stay down?People can tell you how much all this struggle will make you better and stronger in the end, yet you still feel alone like NO ONE could EVER be feeling the same as you are at that moment your moment of rock bottom. Looking in all the wrong places for some kind of answer a solution to all your trouble or even just a person who can take all the hurt and pain away. Yet at the end of your day you still have the void of un-fulfillment and the depressing presence of loneliness. I am at that point.I guess all that is left to do is to hold on to the good in life,smile along the way to help get through the day,and remember that everything happens for a reason even though the reasons are unclear at the moment,one day I'll grow to understand that loud resounding question WHY?...Pray everyday for better and remember that God's plan doesn't always match my own desires and all will fall into place as it should at exactly the right time.

When a Heart Breaks

When a heart breaks it makes no sound
Only silent tears hit the ground

A blanket,a pillow,and an empty bed
As the feeling of loneliness begins to spread

Another night with no one there to make it better
Just resentment,frustration,and a letter

Loved unconditionally never ashamed of
But it was time to overcome a lost love

Not lost by death,tragedy,or regret
Always meant to be something to forget

Doomed at the beginning from the very start
Now left drowning in tears and dying of a broken heart

there

well there are all my poems so far im sure ill b writing plenty more in the days to come but im all blogged out for the day i do however already have a good blog story in mind for 2mrw