Sleeping With a Stranger

Eyes shut, but mind so open
Praying and wishing, maybe just hopin'
Always laughing, but always mopin'
If I don't deserve it, why am I copin'

Things running through my mind
A reason to stay is what I must find
Trying to look deeper, but you've made me blind
You make my head spin and my thoughts wind

Do I really know who you are?
Laying right next to me yet you're so distant, so far
You're dark, secretive and you stick like tar
It's always a hit and miss and im 20 over par

You're so closed off, tell me what you've seen and where you've been
You are my weakness, you are my sin
In every fight, right or wrong, I can NEVER win
I want to love you but you won't let me in

Feels like im sleeping with a stranger,I don't know you
Can't decide if you don't care or do
Always about the promises,but you NEVER follow through
Is it really just me or are there others too?

With you it's always a game,but there is no rule
I feel used,I was simply a tool
Always been a smart girl but you've made me a fool
The silent tears I cry fall to the floor and form a pool

Tell the truth, there's no need to lie or pretEND
Always a guilty conscience always with a reason for you to defEND
My heart I gave you I didn't just lEND
You're so stubborn I always break and bEND
I wish you could get the signal that im trying to sEND
Are you here to break me?,or help me mEND
I want more than just a lover, I want a friEND
But every word every sentence every story has an END